I hope everyone had a great weekend! I wanted to give you a quick update on my cyst situation by sharing my experience with the surgery. I had a minor surgery to drain the cyst because I didn’t have the patience to continue to deal with the inflammation. Besides, It had gotten extremely painful, irritating, and just became a nuisance to have this thing on my back not to mention how nasty it looked. When I went for my doctor visit Thursday to follow up on how the antibiotics were working to shrink the cyst, I decided to just let him do the surgery. It really wasn’t getting better even with antibiotics for a week. After the doctor explained that the healing process was not going to be overnight and that surgical removal was the best thing to do I agreed to go through with the surgery.
My doctor and his assistant were very reassuring as they made me feel comfortable. I was worried about the numbing medication via needle because I don’t like needles (who does?) but I can deal with them. My doctor told me that if I can handle getting my blood drawn than I should be able to handle this needle because the needle he was going to use was smaller than the standard needle used when blood is drawn. I perked up then! haha! Getting my blood drawn is a piece of cake. He even showed me the type of needle he would be using. I appreciated him being patient with me and trying to make me feel comfortable. I liked him so much that I wish he could be my primary physician but he’s a surgeon. I don’t want to have to see him after this is all over…lol. I just have a few more follow ups to track healing.
In addition to the fact that he had a great sense of humor and professionalism, I trusted that my doctor knew what he was doing. I felt that he cared about making me feel comfortable and getting the job done. This helped me let go of a lot of my anxiety. I do have general anxiety by the way but I keep it under control (most of the time) using deep breathing techniques, and meditation. I’m currently exploring other calming practices including the use of crystals and healing stones in my meditation.
During the procedure , I remember talking a lot…lol…That’s what I do when I am comfortable around people (and when I’m nervous). They were very easy to talk to. I felt confident that this was not going to be as bad as I thought. In the end, I only felt pressure in areas that were inflamed but I mostly used my deep breathing to keep me calm. Thankfully, it worked because I felt very calm despite going under the “knife”.
I share all of this with you because I know many can relate to having anxiety. You may have even experienced a cyst or something similar. This experience taught me a few things: One, don’t put off for tomorrow what could be done today. I waited too long (until the cyst got inflamed) to address this issue. It didn’t have to come to the point of surgery but you live and you learn. Two, shit happens. Yes, my waiting too long to address this skin issue caused a cyst to develop but it could have been worse. I can heal from this and life will continue to be great. This does not mean that I did something wrong or that my health is in jeopardy. It’s a warning from my body that I need to just pay attention to it more.
Lastly, I learned that deep breathing is a super power many of us aren’t aware of and/or just don’t use for various reasons. I know for a fact that it helps in many circumstances not just during surgery but during typical every day situations. I once used deep breathing to relieve pressure from my bladder after waiting too long to use the bathroom. It worked because it kept me from peeing on myself and relieved my irritability. You know the feeling. How do you manage anxiety? Everyone has it to an extent. I would love to know if you meditate, use crystals, prayer, whatever the practice is. This is a non-discriminatory zone. We can all use different practices based on different beliefs without feeling like we are being judged for thinking differently from the other. Next up, I’ll be sharing my experience with salt and epsom salt baths to detoxify, cleanse negative energy, and to relax.
Love and Light,