Cysts, ayurveda and antibiotics…In that order


Peace Soulstars,

As promised, I wanted to share my horrific experience with an epidermoid cyst which has developed on my back.  I’ve been dealing with this thing for quite a while (several months)  but it wasn’t causing me any problems until now.  I now truly regret waiting so long to address this.  Now, it’s extremely painful.  Currently, I’m on antibiotics while also using a natural antibiotic, turmeric.  I’ve also found that drinking a tea of apple cider vinegar (with “the mother“), raw honey, and lemon to be helpful in making me feel more comfortable at least.  Apple Cider Vinegar is antibacterial, anti-inflamatory, anti-fungal, antiviral among many others.  It’s anti everything that will prevent your body from being alkaline and it strengthens the immune system.  If you don’t know, now you know that disease cannot live in an alkaline body.  😉  My goal is to be as alkaline as possible.  Here’s how this cyst began.

The cyst developed about a year ago (approximately).  I know it sounds bad but just let me explain.  I used to exercise 3-4x a week at a Pure Barre Studio.  I was wearing sports bras and getting sweaty almost everyday.  Of course I took a shower after I was done but for some reason I can’t help but wonder if that contributed to the cyst developing.  Prior to that I had no issues with my skin.  About 6 or so months after doing Pure Barre consistently for the same amount of time every week I began to notice this small lump on my back where my bra usually rests.   The next few sentences may be a little too graphic for you so you’re welcome to skip down to the middle of the next paragraph at “I tried tea tree oil”…The bump had a tiny opening at the tip.  I could see what looked to be some cheesy like material ready to be excreted or drained from the tip.

At first I could drain it.  This is not really the best thing to do because it can contribute to inflammation if not done properly hence the whole reason I’m dealing with this situation.  So, I would just squeeze it and the yellowish cheesy material would come out.  I would do this until nothing else came out.  Well several months later I would do my regular routine of taking a shower and trying to drain this bump because the steam from the shower softens and opens up your pores.  It would only keep reappearing every few days as the sebum oils etc would build up.  I tried tea tree oil (diluted of course), a raw honey and cinnamon mask, apple cider vinegar (acv), bentonite clay pastes and other natural remedies to dry it up.  They helped to an extent but by the time I really started doing this it had gotten to the point of no return to its natural state.  As the opening became blocked and unable to drain, the problem turned to disaster. The cyst got bigger and more annoying.  That’s when I started the epsom salt baths which helped but I ended up stopping because we were in transition (moving) and we were staying at my mom’s temporarily.   Salt baths and baths with epsom salts, baking soda, and lavender oil (sometimes tea tree) were not only relaxing but helped start the process of shrinking the cyst naturally.

There was so much going on that I didn’t feel as though I had the time or energy to tend to this “situation”.  My mom tried to help by putting some type of tea tree oil on it (more of a synthetic form).   I just about tried so many natural remedies but one day I woke up and it was sore (inflamed, warm to the touch).   As soon as we got moved into our home I found a doctor who prescribed an antibiotic for me to take which he said should shrink it.  I’ve been on the antibiotic since Wednesday.   I experienced itching  and soreness at first.  The itching was so disrespectful!  It was better than pain but it literally itched all day and night.  Then, the pain returned.  So between the itching and pain I guess it’s safe to say that the antibiotic must be doing its thing aka “knocking this inflammation out”!

Right now (Saturday) as I am typing I feel more comfortable as I’ve taken my two daily doses of antibiotics, had my turmeric smoothie this am, and drank my acv tea this evening! *deep sigh*  To be honest, after drinking the acv tea I always seem to feel better instantly.   I’m willing to do whatever it takes! I just might jump in the tub with epsom salts tonight too! LOL…I am convinced that I must be more consistent with my healthy lifestyle.  Those salt baths are everything! If you have not tried a salt bath either with sea salt or epsom salts (which are obviously two different things but both effective for detoxing) you have got to try them.

I plan to use a more integrative approach to healing my body. Therefore, I’m incorporating the use of an antibiotic in addition to ayurveda by using epsom salt baths, turmeric internally in the form of smoothies and teas along with drinking my acv tea.  We shall see how this turns out! I have a doctor’s appointment coming up on Thursday! So, I’ll keep y’all posted!  I hope everyone found some sense of peace during this long weekend.   We had family over for the weekend and had lots of laughs which was good for me.  It took my mind off of my pain and discomfort.   Peace to everyone for a great short week ahead!

Love and Light,



Don’t forget the window sills…


Peace Soulstars,

I have not been blogging as much lately due to some major life changes ahead for myself and my family. Good things though!   We also were away for a week on a mini vacay in which we took care of business as well.  Many positive manifestations happening right now including a major move.  As I’ve been taking time to purge physical things prior to moving out of our apartment I have also been continuing the process of purging emotional and mental handicaps including people, the past, problems, situations and the like.

This morning I opened the curtains to raise the blinds and decided to check out the window sills.  I have noticed build up over time but neglected to clean them.  After noticing the filth, I proceeded to grab a cleaner and paper towels and wiped those bad boys down!  I also thought about how breathing that stuff is in is terrible for your body.  As I proceeded to clean the build up of dirt, pollen, and other debris, I felt so much better.  I remember when we first moved in I made sure I wiped the window sills whenever I dusted because it looked so much better to me.  It was also easier to clean because I did it regularly.  Over time I had forgotten about them so it took a little more effort to clean this time but it got done.

As you know, the window sills are the surface at the bottom of a window on the interior side.  I place emphasis on “interior” for a reason.  Stay with me.  Underneath the grime was a clean, fresh surface which was so much more pleasing to my senses including my soul.  This brings me to my point.  We tend to forget those little crevices that are an important part of our environment/living space and often get overlooked as time progresses.  We concentrate mostly on the larger, outer surfaces while neglecting those small spaces and corners that need cleaning too.  It happens so easily because those small areas aren’t usually seen by the naked eye.  You have to look closer.  Usually, this doesn’t happen until we are sneezing, coughing, or just get tired of looking at it because sometimes we notice but put it off ;-).

The same goes for us as spiritual beings inhabiting physical bodies.  We often forget to cleanse our souls of build up from  years of toxic people, situations, problems, etc.  Purging and cleansing are an important part of starting anew.  For example, when moving try purging your space of anything unnecessary before packing.  While going through items, ask yourself “Does this serve me?” “Do I have a need for this or am I holding onto it just because?”  That is when you know you need to let it go.

This is a great way to get into the mindset of cleansing yourself of anything that does not serve you.  Removing layers of build up will do wonders for your life in all areas.  In order to grow, change, and improve yourself from the inside out it’s imperative to check in to those areas regularly.  It’s preventative and helps improve overall health.  Once you purge and cleanse you can start fresh which will allow you to move forward mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.   When you have those three down the physical will have no choice but to follow suit.

Remember to set time aside daily or weekly (whatever fits your lifestyle best) to check in.  If you need to write it down, write it down or put a reminder in your phone until it becomes second nature.  Do what works for you and feel better! If you need to set the reminder as “Don’t forget the window sills!”.

Love and Light,


Meditation…My Most Important Lessons

“Meditation is emptying your mind completely of all belief, ideology, concept, thought.  Only in an empty mind when there is no dust left on the mirror truth reflects.” ~Osho

Peace Soulstars,

The above quote is from “The Book of Wisdom” by Osho which I have yet to finish because it’s filled with so much wisdom that I have to pace myself.  I take notes in the margins and everything.  I highly recommend it.  Many may find this “mindless” concept of meditation questionable.  It has even become quite controversial but just like with any other information you take it as just that.  It is information.  Use it how you see fit.  What is truth to one is not truth to the other.

Meditation is all in what you make it out to be.  It does not always have to consist of you sitting “mindlessly” in lotus position while deep breathing.  For example, this past weekend my meditation consisted of creating my vision board (finally).  Most of the time I  do sit in lotus position while deep breathing as I let the thoughts that enter my mind pass like clouds in the sky.  My understanding is that it is okay to have thoughts while meditating.  It is what the mind does.  The key is not letting the thoughts control your feelings and/or distract you from your peace of mind.  Also, have fun!  Meditating should not be stressful.  It defeats the purpose if it is.

I’ve meditated off and on in the past but my most successful experience with meditating began when I used the app Headspace.  I did the free 10 minute daily sessions which helped me understand what I was doing, why, and how to begin.  From there, I began meditating on my own and found that I was able to meditate for 10 minutes without a timer or other guidance.  This intrigued me as I found that the mind truly is more powerful than we give it credit.  It was nonstop from then on which led me to learn how to meditate in other ways besides sitting still.  Though I do enjoy sitting still and find it very effective.

In the months that I have been practicing daily meditation for at least 15- 20 minutes (sometimes longer) here are a few lessons I’ve learned:

  • There are many creative, effective ways to meditate.  Do not just stick to one method
  • You can meditate anywhere when you really get the hang of it
  • Learning to let my thoughts come and go without reacting to them helped me resist feeling (letting thoughts control you)
  • I was able to tune out the physical state (sounds, distractions, tension/pains in the body) by focusing on the breath and breathing  causing me to relax
  • It is okay to lose focus at times as thoughts take you off track but what’s important is that you bring your awareness back to the breath

I’ll be sharing some of my experiences with meditation.  I think many of you will find it interesting how I learned to take life to a whole other level by learning how to connect with my spiritual self.  I hope you find this helpful in establishing a meditation practice of your own.  Remember, everyone is different with different needs and starting from different points in their journey.  When you understand that, you’ll be able to reap the full benefits of meditation.

Love and Light,


Distractions, vices, and silent killers

Peace Soulstars,

Often times we ignore our issues, suppress them and try to cope by distracting ourselves with vices which can be anything from tv, social media, food, sex ,drugs; the list goes on. This does more harm than good. We tend to realize this after damage has already been done like when we have several failed relationships, fall victim to drug addiction or develop a physical disorder.  Yes, psychological disorders can be converted to physical disorders when you don’t address unresolved issues.  There does come a time when we have to face our issues by duking it out with our fears and anxieties. If we don’t, we continue to perpetuate the cycle and eventually end up stuck in the same place where we started. Sometimes we don’t even realize this because we are that caught up in the distractions.

What do you think about late at night while everyone else is sleeping?  What are those thoughts in your mind which run in circles keeping you up all to return every single night?  Those are the things that you need to address because at some point you will have to face them whether you want to or not.  You can continue to distract yourself but you will never really be free until you just let go.  Depending on the problem you may need to seek professional help.  Does it mean you are crazy? Nope.  It just means you need to seek perspective.  You may need a little push through guidance of someone who can help you remove the veil.  The veil being those things which you “hide” behind to cover up what is inside.  Is this going to be easy? Nope.  Well, sometimes it may be easier than you think but it really depends on what the issues are and how long you’ve been holding onto them.

You will be doing yourself a disservice if you continue to use the veil and add on distraction after distraction after distraction.   You’ll know you need guidance from a professional when your problems affect your functioning.  For example, you cannot complete your tasks at work or at home like you usually could before this problem or if a child, they have recurring conflict with classmates/teachers and their grades fall.  Some other signs for adults and young adults include rapid weight loss or gain, appetite changes (increase or decrease), inability to experience pleasure or joy (anhedonia), and of course a huge sign is thoughts of harming yourself (suicidal ideation) or thoughts of harming others (homicidal ideation).  These are a few and be mindful that they are very subjective.

You must consider the role of all factors that affect your wellbeing.  That is why it is important to have a biopsychosocial assessment done by a professional because they know what areas to look into.  You may not even realize the extent to which biological, psychological, and environmental factors are affecting you.  In other cases,  you may not even need professional help.  You may just need to ask yourself “What do I want and how do I get it?”  Then, you take the necessary steps to do what you need to do.  Make sure that what you want is reasonable.   Depending on the circumstances what you want may just not be obtainable or  try this perspective: What you want may not be what you need.  I mean if it is a man or woman you “want” but they are married, involved or just not interested but you want to work on getting them anyway you may want to reconsider seeking professional help.  Just saying…

Just like we need to see a doctor or naturopath to keep track of our physical health we need to seek professional help for mental health.  They are all interconnected.  If you have a mental illness it can affect you physically and vice versa.  On average, when you have a tooth ache don’t you at some point go to the dentist to have them check it out?  If you have pain anywhere on or inside your body that won’t go away don’t you make an appointment to see your primary care physician?  It should be the same if you find yourself having emotional issues which can bring on anxiety, depression and other ailments.

As stated previously, some physical disorders can trigger psychological disorders.  There are cases where physicians treating  patients with chronic physical illnesses can and do overlook psychological disorders such as depression.  Most physicians are more concerned with the physical disorder because that’s the reason for the visit.  Many do not ask about what is going on with you mentally or emotionally.  Untreated mental illness can affect you differently than physical illness but both have a tremendous affect on your well being.  Simply put you end up treating the symptoms and not the problems.  Either way, if you keep sweeping the issues under the rug will come to surface anyway because all you’re doing is letting issues build up and build up.  You will be left with physical and/or emotional issues in the long haul.  You may shrug your shoulders and say “Well, nothing is happening yet so I’m good.”   Not necessarily.  Ever heard of the silent killer diseases?  They aren’t called “silent killers” for nothing.

Ready to seek help from a mental health professional but don’t know where to begin?  Make an appointment to see your pcp and ask them to refer you to a mental health professional or check with your insurance company.  You have to check with your insurance company anyway to be sure that your services will be covered.  Hope this was helpful!

Love and Light,




I’m not crazy!

For many, the thought of seeking mental health treatment is met with the statement “I’m not crazy” due to stigma attached to this social issue which plagues more people than not. I gained much knowledge as a mental health professional and in my studies leading up to a career as a clinician. What I know for sure is that initially the only difference between people who seek mental health treatment versus those who don’t is that the people who do get help actually acknowledge their issues.

Many people out here are masking their unresolved issues and self medicating through methods including simple every day things like eating, smoking, social drinking, shopping etc. Seems harmless right? Well, just like much of everything else these are simple things that can turn into vices if not managed properly. Eating and shopping are deemed socially acceptable so they go overlooked because there is not much stigma attached. The result? People continue on ignoring their problems leaving issues unresolved while engaging their temporary fixes which do nothing but make matters worse. Either they are aware but are unsure, are aware but just don’t care enough or are simply unaware. A major barrier to seeking mental health treatment for many is fear. Fear of stigma is a big one.

There are people who honestly don’t realize they have unresolved issues until things go awry. Some deny it for fear of being judged because of stigma attached to seeking help. “I’m not crazy” is the typical response. First, there are many levels of mental illness. Not all levels of severity involve the extreme cases which are all too often the depiction by society including the media. It does not make you “crazy” to need and/or seek help. What truly is “crazy” is when you know you need help but don’t do anything about it. This goes for parents as well; parents who have kids that they know need help whether it is behavioral, developmental, mental, drug and/or alcohol issues. You are doing those you love a major disservice by not getting them the help they need. As parents that is your responsibility. If your kids fall short later in life due to your lack of action or inaction it is because of your failure to fulfill your role.

This does not apply to those who are not in a position to do so mentally, physically, financially etc.  We are a part of a system which is failing many of us tremendously in this area.  As a result there are many who seek treatment but can not receive it due to systemic barriers.  However, if you do have the means and access to resources you have no excuse. I have much respect for the people who get help personally and seek help for their loved ones instead of living in denial (and ignorance knowingly) as if everything is all good when it really is not. There is a difference when you are aware and have the means. Many people are aware and do not so it really is not their fault for the system failing them. That is a whole other story I will get into later. Until then, let it be known that no one is crazy for acknowledging that they need help.

Much love,