I hope everyone had a great weekend! I wanted to give you a quick update on my cyst situation by sharing my experience with the surgery. I had a minor surgery to drain the cyst because I didn’t have the patience to continue to deal with the inflammation. Besides, It had gotten extremely painful, irritating, and just became a nuisance to have this thing on my back not to mention how nasty it looked. When I went for my doctor visit Thursday to follow up on how the antibiotics were working to shrink the cyst, I decided to just let him do the surgery. It really wasn’t getting better even with antibiotics for a week. After the doctor explained that the healing process was not going to be overnight and that surgical removal was the best thing to do I agreed to go through with the surgery.
My doctor and his assistant were very reassuring as they made me feel comfortable. I was worried about the numbing medication via needle because I don’t like needles (who does?) but I can deal with them. My doctor told me that if I can handle getting my blood drawn than I should be able to handle this needle because the needle he was going to use was smaller than the standard needle used when blood is drawn. I perked up then! haha! Getting my blood drawn is a piece of cake. He even showed me the type of needle he would be using. I appreciated him being patient with me and trying to make me feel comfortable. I liked him so much that I wish he could be my primary physician but he’s a surgeon. I don’t want to have to see him after this is all over…lol. I just have a few more follow ups to track healing.
In addition to the fact that he had a great sense of humor and professionalism, I trusted that my doctor knew what he was doing. I felt that he cared about making me feel comfortable and getting the job done. This helped me let go of a lot of my anxiety. I do have general anxiety by the way but I keep it under control (most of the time) using deep breathing techniques, and meditation. I’m currently exploring other calming practices including the use of crystals and healing stones in my meditation.
During the procedure , I remember talking a lot…lol…That’s what I do when I am comfortable around people (and when I’m nervous). They were very easy to talk to. I felt confident that this was not going to be as bad as I thought. In the end, I only felt pressure in areas that were inflamed but I mostly used my deep breathing to keep me calm. Thankfully, it worked because I felt very calm despite going under the “knife”.
I share all of this with you because I know many can relate to having anxiety. You may have even experienced a cyst or something similar. This experience taught me a few things: One, don’t put off for tomorrow what could be done today. I waited too long (until the cyst got inflamed) to address this issue. It didn’t have to come to the point of surgery but you live and you learn. Two, shit happens. Yes, my waiting too long to address this skin issue caused a cyst to develop but it could have been worse. I can heal from this and life will continue to be great. This does not mean that I did something wrong or that my health is in jeopardy. It’s a warning from my body that I need to just pay attention to it more.
Lastly, I learned that deep breathing is a super power many of us aren’t aware of and/or just don’t use for various reasons. I know for a fact that it helps in many circumstances not just during surgery but during typical every day situations. I once used deep breathing to relieve pressure from my bladder after waiting too long to use the bathroom. It worked because it kept me from peeing on myself and relieved my irritability. You know the feeling. How do you manage anxiety? Everyone has it to an extent. I would love to know if you meditate, use crystals, prayer, whatever the practice is. This is a non-discriminatory zone. We can all use different practices based on different beliefs without feeling like we are being judged for thinking differently from the other. Next up, I’ll be sharing my experience with salt and epsom salt baths to detoxify, cleanse negative energy, and to relax.
Love and Light,
Is it really September and I let a whole month go by without blogging? Shame on me! The nerve! In my attempt to scold myself for being M.I.A. for a while I want you all to know there’s a legitimate excuse that keeps me from being too hard on myself. There’s a reason that August was pretty much non existent on the blog and the one year anniversary (August 15th) of Amanisoul.com got completely overlooked! *deep sigh* That is a huge accomplishment by the way which deserves its own post (Coming Soon!).
Lots of transitions have been taking over my life as of late including a move back to my hometown, the DMV! I wanted to just briefly take the time to explain that the lack of posts for the past month have been due to my shift of focus solely being on packing and moving in a nutshell. It’s been quite the experience because it was our third move in three years. Yes, every Labor Day weekend for the last three years we have moved. We moved to Boston in 2014, moved to another apartment (same complex) in 2015 and this year we moved to the DMV! This will be the last move for a LONG time! I’m speaking it into existence!! *hands up to the universe*
Speaking of the universe, I almost lost my mind just a little bit (haha) but I discovered how beneficial mindfulness meditation is in maintaining my sanity. Right now as we speak the house is still filled with boxes and I’m okay with that for someone who despises disorder. If ever you’re faced with so many things going on at one time some of which are beyond your control make it mandatory to take time out for yourself to enjoy life. Appreciate the “little things”.
Treat yourself to some ice cream (or a smoothie for my health conscious folks), go for a walk, get outside…Do whatever you like to do that represents life and forces you to slow down! Focus on that one thing and take every second and minute to enjoy every morsel of “life”. That is mindfulness. Then you can go back to dealing with the chaos with a cool head. We all need balance. We need the stress to learn how to deal with challenges when they arise because there’s no escaping stress. We can minimize it but not totally omit it. At the end of the day, regardless of the craziness life still goes on. Remind yourself that this is only temporary.
Well, we’re all moved in now but still lots of organizing and unpacking to do among a plethora of other things that have tested my ability to remain calm like dealing with the MVA. In other news, in case some of you didn’t know I do have an instagram where I post more frequently with shorter more straight to the point inspirational posts. I share my experiences in getting closer to my higher self, the
mistakes lessons (because I’m human) in this journey called life, and my fascination in rediscovering the use of crystals. Manifestation at its best! You can find me on insta at amanisoul_. I’m also on snapchat as missangiebee. So many blessings and new beginnings have my level of gratitude on high! Not only am I thankful for this next chapter. I am also thankful that I still have my loyal audience which is you who hasn’t quit on me during the time of my absence. Life happens and I know y’all understand that. So, thank you!
The break stops here though. I needed to take time to focus on packing, preparing for the move etc. If you’ve been there done that than you know what it all entails. I honestly could not focus on blog posts so I would post here and there to instagram because it was just easier with the way my lifestyle was at the time of transitioning. Transitioning is still in effect as we get used to new surroundings, people, and everything else thrown our way but we are taking it one day at a time. Been working on new posts which I plan to start sharing soon including one about an epidermoid cyst that has developed on my back. I’ll discuss how I plan to use an integrative approach to healing myself because I’ll be using an antibiotic (per Doctor’s orders) in addition to natural remedies for the inflammation. Until next time, I hope you all have a peaceful weekend!
Love and Light,
“Meditation is emptying your mind completely of all belief, ideology, concept, thought. Only in an empty mind when there is no dust left on the mirror truth reflects.” ~Osho
The above quote is from “The Book of Wisdom” by Osho which I have yet to finish because it’s filled with so much wisdom that I have to pace myself. I take notes in the margins and everything. I highly recommend it. Many may find this “mindless” concept of meditation questionable. It has even become quite controversial but just like with any other information you take it as just that. It is information. Use it how you see fit. What is truth to one is not truth to the other.
Meditation is all in what you make it out to be. It does not always have to consist of you sitting “mindlessly” in lotus position while deep breathing. For example, this past weekend my meditation consisted of creating my vision board (finally). Most of the time I do sit in lotus position while deep breathing as I let the thoughts that enter my mind pass like clouds in the sky. My understanding is that it is okay to have thoughts while meditating. It is what the mind does. The key is not letting the thoughts control your feelings and/or distract you from your peace of mind. Also, have fun! Meditating should not be stressful. It defeats the purpose if it is.
I’ve meditated off and on in the past but my most successful experience with meditating began when I used the app Headspace. I did the free 10 minute daily sessions which helped me understand what I was doing, why, and how to begin. From there, I began meditating on my own and found that I was able to meditate for 10 minutes without a timer or other guidance. This intrigued me as I found that the mind truly is more powerful than we give it credit. It was nonstop from then on which led me to learn how to meditate in other ways besides sitting still. Though I do enjoy sitting still and find it very effective.
In the months that I have been practicing daily meditation for at least 15- 20 minutes (sometimes longer) here are a few lessons I’ve learned:
- There are many creative, effective ways to meditate. Do not just stick to one method
- You can meditate anywhere when you really get the hang of it
- Learning to let my thoughts come and go without reacting to them helped me resist feeling (letting thoughts control you)
- I was able to tune out the physical state (sounds, distractions, tension/pains in the body) by focusing on the breath and breathing causing me to relax
- It is okay to lose focus at times as thoughts take you off track but what’s important is that you bring your awareness back to the breath
I’ll be sharing some of my experiences with meditation. I think many of you will find it interesting how I learned to take life to a whole other level by learning how to connect with my spiritual self. I hope you find this helpful in establishing a meditation practice of your own. Remember, everyone is different with different needs and starting from different points in their journey. When you understand that, you’ll be able to reap the full benefits of meditation.
Love and Light,